The Privilege of Solitude
There are revelations hidden within your inner Fortress of Solitude
It’s very rare to be able to remove yourself from a busy lifestyle, from the copious expectations associated with living. I was way too busy to even remotely consider solitude. But as it’s done so many times before, “life” steered me towards what I unknowingly needed, which differed completely from what I wanted. On face value, it would appear that my life was destroyed. However, I see now that I have been privileged to be able to take a step back from my life, assess it from a detached perspective and make a conscious decision on its direction. I am very grateful for the faculties I have been allowed to keep and enhance. I feel it is now my responsibility to fully utilise them.
I’m sure you will have heard a similar saying to, “Work to live, not live to work.” I found that in my younger years, I did indeed work to live, solely to help me towards my hopes and dreams. I’m not sure when it happened, but work instead became my life, consuming what had been there before. I forgot why I’d started to work in the first place. The same can be said for my recovery from my brain injury. I’ve lost sight of what I set out to achieve; to be able to live my life to the fullest. Have I made a remarkable recovery to remain in my “external Fortress of Solitude” (a nice house filled with nice things) with no responsibilities or varied challenges? NO!!! I feel like I’m losing myself…
Although I knew how passionately I felt, I didn’t know what to do about it. With my copious free time, I asked myself what I needed and kept an open mind. I realised I need to experience this glorious world, filled with beautiful sights, amazing history and horizon expanding culture; I need to meet awesome people (like the people on here!) and experience their way of life. My independence was stolen from me on 4 July 2009. I’m ready to be reunited with it. Going travelling in a wheelchair (and a walking frame for getting around indoors), I will inevitaby be faced with many challenges. Therefore, I will find myself.
A problem now arises. I don’t have the money to be able to make this happen. I DO however, have a house. I believe so wholeheartedly in the above, I will sell my house to go travelling. After all, you only have “one life, LIVE IT”.
I started to think that maybe I was dreaming a bit big. Then a friend posted an article by David Wolfe. It said things like:
Then, a couple of my WordPress friends posted articles on Facebook, linking to the quote I opened with from Deepak Chopra. It all started to make sense. My soul was trying to give me the nourishment I need to live. I just need to allow it. So, I’m selling my house and going travelling, starting with Australia and America. If anyone has a sofa I could use for a night, I would be eternally grateful. If this is not convenient for any reason (I completely understand life doesn’t always allow us to do what we’d like), I’d very much appreciate anybody meeting me just to say “hello” and point me in the direction of local things worth seeing/experiencing. I will use this article as a reference point when on my travels, so anybody who would be kind enough to meet me, please say where you are in the comments. Every time I go somewhere new, I will see if there’s anybody I should contact!
In summary, I may be making a mistake, but what an EPIC MISTAKE. No regrets!